Why Did I Become the Villainess?

 I didn't realize how time flies. I didn't even realize I have fallen asleep while crying. When I open my eyes, I have a massive headache. I can also feel my eyes are swollen from crying too much. 

 I put my ears on the door to check if Prince Fraser is still inside the room. But I didn't hear any sound outside. I sigh and slowly open the door. I peek around the surroundings first, trying to see if Prince Fraser is around or if there is someone inside the room. I sighed in relief when I didn't find someone.

 I looked outside the window and realized that I have slept for quite a long time because it is starting to get dark outside. I immediately took my things and went back home. 

 I cannot go home late because the threat of the Strzalka is still around. I don't know when and where they will attack again, so to be safe, I need to get home before it gets dark.

 I walk past the garden, and I smile sadly when I find the striped carnation again. 

 I'm sorry, Prince Fraser, because I cannot be with you. 

 I arrived at the residence before the sun sets. It's a good thing that something didn't happen to me. 

 I frowned when I didn't see anyone on the first floor. Aside from the maids. Where are they? Shouldn't they get home by now? 

 I am about to enter my room when I heard someone call my name. I sighed when I realized the person who called me. I thought it's Prince Fraser. It's a good thing it's Princess Paislee. I look back. "Sir Farren, do you need anything?"

 Princess Paislee looks at me from head to toe. She then stares at my eyes. "Did you cry, Lady Csille?"

 I immediately touched my swollen eyes. How can I forget about it? I walk around the Saiven street with my swollen eyes? What would people say? 

 I shake my head at Princess Paislee. I cannot let her know that I was crying. I need to find an excuse. "It's because of the fever. I didn't get enough sleep last night." I scoff. "Why would I even cry?"

 Princess Paislee stares at me intently for a couple of minutes before she sighs. "Can I talk to you, Lady Csille?"

 I immediately raised my eyebrow at her. Can they give me a break? I just had a breakdown, and the female lead wants to talk to me now? What does she want? Prince Fraser? She can have him for all she wants. Just give me a break.

 "Is there something we need to talk about, Sir Farren? As far as I know, everything's okay right?"

 Princess Paislee looks around first before she looks at me. "I really need to talk about something important, Lady Csille. Can I have a spare of your time?"

 Can she read between the lines? I'm tired. I just want to rest and cry until I fall asleep again. I don't want to talk to anyone right now. My mind is pretty clouded, and my heart is hurting.

 I sigh. "I'm sorry, Sir Farren. I don't want to be rude. However, I'm really exhausted right now. Can we talk another time?"

 I look at her back. Princess Paislee and Prince Fraser are always together. If Princess Paislee is in the residence, I'm sure Prince Fraser is inside the residence too. And I cannot let him see me like this. 

 Princess Paislee sigh. "Lady Csille, you're making a huge mistake."

 I frown. What mistake is she talking about? What did I do again? "What do you mean, Sir Farren? What mistake?"

 Princess Paislee looks around first before answering me. "Lady Csille, can we talk about this inside? I don't think it's appropriate to talk about this here." She keeps looking around her.

 I sigh. I guess I have no choice but to let her in. I got really curious about what she said. What mistake? 

 I open the door and let her in. "I hope this won't last long, Sir Farren. You know how this is inappropriate to other people's eyes."

 Sir Farren bows his head. "Lady Csille, rest assured I am loyal to the Crown Prince. How can I dare to do something to his fiancée?"

 I almost want to laugh at Princess Paislee. Yes, you are loyal to the Crown Prince because she is your love interest. But the loyalty she is talking about is different than the loyalty I am thinking.

 I gesture my hand on an empty seat while I sit on my bed. "Tell me about this mistake. What do you mean by that, Sir Farren?"

 Princess Paislee sigh. "I'm sorry, Lady Csille. I might sound like I am putting my nose in your lives. However, I cannot just watch on the sideline. What you are doing is definitely a mistake." 

 I scoff. "Sir Farren, I don't understand. What do you mean by mistake? What mistake are you referring to?"

 "You, having a fight with Prince Fraser." 

 I nod my head at Princess Paislee. I couldn't help but smile. "Fight? I'm sorry, but I think you are mistaken, Sir Farren."

 Who said I just have a fight with Prince Fraser? I want to laugh at her. 

 Princess Paislee frowns at me. "What do you mean I am mistaken? I am definitely sure that you had a fight with Prince Fraser. Both of you are avoiding each other just like before. If you are not fighting. Then why do you do that?"

 I shrugged my shoulders at her. "I broke up with him. So, you're definitely mistaken. We didn't fight. We broke up."

 Princess Paislee almost falls on her seat because of what she heard. "I'm sorry, Lady Csille. But I think I heard things wrong. What did you say?"

 I don't know if I should laugh or frown at her. Why does she look like she just heard an unbelievable news? Is that too shocking? "I said, I broke up with Prince Fraser."

 After saying those words, Princess Paislee falls on the floor this time. She looks at me with disbelief on her face. "But why? Why would you break up with him? That's a mistake! You're definitely making a huge mistake, Lady Csille!" She snaps at me. 

 She immediately stands up and sits beside me. She then holds my shoulders on both of her hands and slightly shakes me. "Lady Csille, you are making a huge mistake. Why did you break up with Prince Fraser? You need to get back with him."

 I tried to break from Princess Paislee's hold, but she won't let me. I don't understand why she is so worked up. Why is she so affected by my breakup with Prince Fraser?

 I let her calm down a bit before I ask her a question. "Sir Farren, I don't understand why you would be so affected like this? Why? Why do you sound like you're so disappointed with what happened?"

 Princess Paislee froze on the spot. She just stares at me for a couple of minutes before she sighs. She then takes her hand away from me. "I'm sorry. I was just carried away. Please, punish me for my indecent behavior." Princess Paislee kneels down on me.

 I sigh. How can I let a Crown Princess kneels in front of me? I am just the daughter of the Count. I don't think it's right for her to do that. 

 I immediately ask her to stand up. "I understand you. Please stand up, Sir Farren. You don't need to kneel in front of me."

 Princess Paislee hesitantly stands up and sits on the chair she was sitting before. I let her calm herself first before I ask him the question I've been dying to ask. 

 "Sir Farren, can you explain to me why you are so affected by my break up with Prince Fraser? I just don't expect you will be this worked up."

 Princess Paislee tried to avoid my gaze. She then sighs. "I'm just concerned, Lady Csille. I am the personal knight of the Crown Prince, and anything concern about him will be my concern too. Did you see how Prince Fraser acts these days? You should see how he always looks so preoccupied. He also doesn't have much energy, unlike before. I sometimes see him staring in thin air and sulking. Do you expect me not to care, Lady Csille?"

 I nod my head. It seems reasonable. However, I don't understand why would she likes to ship Prince Fraser with me. Like hello, she is the female lead here. Why would she matchmake her love interest with me? The Villainess. 

 "But what do you mean by mistake?"

 I still don't understand what mistake she is talking about. I am sure I'm not making any mistakes right now. I'm even sacrificing a lot of things here. How can it be a mistake?

 Princess Paislee sigh. "The King and the Count have a deal with each other. Going against the deal is definitely a mistake. Can you dare to disobey his highness, the King? You do know what's the punishment to those people who disobey the King, right?"

 I sigh. Why do people always think that I will be the one who will cancel my engagement with Prince Fraser? Well, in fact, he is the one who will cancel it.

 I suddenly remember the dream. I had last night.

 "Mother, please grant my wish." 

 "Son, I know you love someone else, but what about Csille? What will we say to the Count if you cancel the engagement?"

 "Mother, if we push this engagement. I will only hurt Csille. I don't want her to hope for something I couldn't give. I don't love her..."

 I'm pretty sure I am not the one who will cancel the engagement, but why am I the one who needs to explain things to people? 

 I sigh. "I didn't cancel our engagement. So, I don't understand why are you saying I am disobeying the King?"

 "Lady Csille, breaking up with Prince Fraser also means breaking off the engagement." 

 I shake my head repeatedly. "No, it doesn't equate to that. I only break up with Prince Fraser, but I didn't say I will be canceling our engagement. That's two different things, Sir Farren. You can assure that I will not disobey the King no matter what." 

 Princess Paislee stares at me for a couple of minutes before she sighs. "However, you break up with Prince Fraser, right?"

 "And so? What does it have to do with that?"

 "Lady Csille, wouldn't your breakup to Prince Fraser would be useless if the engagement is still valid?"

 I shake my head at Princess Paislee. I understand what she is trying to say. "But have you also forgotten that our engagement is still not official?"

 Princess Paislee is about to refute, but I immediately cut her off. "Also, I don't think it will be useless. Why would it be useless? I am talking about the present time, Sir Farren. I want to break up with him right now. And about the future? We will see what will happen. Who knows what the future holds? So, I don't understand why we are talking about the future now. Leave the future behind. What we are facing now is the present. So, let's focus on the present for now," I shrugged my shoulders at her.

 Princess Paislee looks like she wants to say something to me, but she is hesitating. She then shakes her head. "I just hope you can consider the feelings of Prince Fraser, Lady Csille. He was badly hurt because of what you did. You should see-"

 "But did you asked how I am doing? I know you are loyal to Prince Fraser. However, please be considerate with your words Sir Farren. Please be considerate of my feelings." I take a deep breath. "I respect you for being loyal to Prince Fraser. But please respect my decision, Sir Farren. Prince Fraser respects my decision and didn't force me. Can you do that too?"

 Princess Paislee nods her head and stands up. She then bows her head at me. "I'm sorry if my words went overboard. I'm sorry, Lady Csille. I didn't mean to be insensitive of your own feelings." She looks up at me with a sorry expression. "I'll be going now, Lady Csille. Thank you for giving me some time."

 I stand up. I plan to walk her out of my room, but Princess Paislee stops me. I just watch her get out of my room. She then closes it for me.

 I sigh. When will Princess Paislee fall in love with Prince Fraser? I need them to fall in love with each other. So, I can stop myself from falling in love with Prince Fraser.