The Grand Mistress

Simioned had been dreaming of it her whole life. 

This day.

The day that the man she had loved would fall on his knees and proposed to her.

However, no matter how much she took consolation about the fact that Lyndon still loves her and still wants to pursue their planned wedding, she took no joy at how it went. If only she had not seen her naked with Feather at their home, she would have been the happiest woman then.

"Simione, I know you still love me. I can't see it in your eyes. I swear to you, I will never ever hurt you again," Lyndon swore on it. He had thought about it so much in London—when the fear of losing Simione became real hit him. He realized he cannot go on without her and so he wanted to save it. He knew that no matter what he would say, Simione would not believe him anymore but now that he could make her see that he was all willing to marry her and be tied, he was very confident she would  change her mind. It was her dream anyway and he was making all her dreams come true then.

"Sisi, please marry me," Lyndon begged mercilessly that Simione had to close her eyes, take a deep breath and control herself. She had to pause to think it through carefully as her decision right then will determine her future.

"Brother…Don…" Simione's voice was shaking and it took her a very long time before she was able to shook her head no. "I can't,"

Her answer tore Lyndon's world apart. He couldn't believe that when he humbled himself down at her desperately, she would still refuse him. Doesn't Simione love her so much? Why was it that no matter how much she asked forgiveness, she never gave him a chance.

"Sisi, did you even love me?" Lyndon's voice was full of hurt. It was like he had been scammed when all along he was the one who cheated on their relationship. "Why does it felt like you had never loved me at all,"

"I love you, I do," Simione felt like crying. The pain that rushed to Lyndon's face hurt her too but she could do nothing about it because her heart was also bleeding. How can she tend to her pain when she herself couldn't tend to hers. "But love is different from forgiveness and I don't I can forgive you now,"

"I had never made a mistake only now,"

"And yet it was the most painful one,"

"Sisi, can't you not forgive me this once?" He pushed on it. "I'm here already begging at your feet. I've given up my pride just so you could forgive me,"

"I'm really sorry brother Don,"

Simione was about to step back more but Lyndon grabbed her hand tight. Lyndon looked at his ex-girlfriend helplessly. How could she change so much? Simione had treated him so well previously he always overlooked his failed promises, his constant absence and sometimes temper. So the man had always been complacent on her obligations as a lover to her. Yet, even then, whenever he comes home, Simione never resents. However now, it seemed like Simione's heart had no more room for him.

"I'm really sorry brother Don. It's a very beautiful ring, give it to your future wife," Simione said last and was ready to dismiss him but Lyndon instead of backing off, stood on his feet and slammed his body into the girl and wrapped his arms around her.

"Sisi, you know for a fact that you are the only one I wanted to marry," Lyndon's tears were threatening. He felt a rush of panic and pain in his heart and so he hugged Simione hoping she could ease it. "I understand that you can't forgive me now,"

"So I'll wait until you can forgive me," Lyndon added. "No matter how long it is, I will wait for you and I promise you by that time I'll love you better than I did a fews years a go.

"Brother Don, please don't—"

"No Simione, I'll wait," Lyndon took the ring from the box and pulled Simione's hand, palm open. He put the ring in the middle of her hands carefully. "Take this Sisi, take this and carry my love with you. As long as you carry it and not leave this house, I will always wait for you,"

Simione closed her hands and felt the ring inside it. She held on to it as she tried to control her emotions and her heart. What Lyndon did right then was totally unexpected. She wondered then what could have happened between her and Feather, because it seemed like he had changed his mind overnight. 

Why would he do this now when she was already planning to leave? He was only making things more painful and complicated between the two of them.

"Simione, I regret what I did. It was only now that I realized what I lost, I would do everything to get it back," Lyndon told the girl with an expression that bore all his regrets. "If you say yes, I will marry you and I will stay here with you,"

His next words became more tempting. During the time that Lyndon pursued his dreams in London, he was always abroad and so she missed him all the time. His grandparents had been asking him to come back and work for their company while Simione silently tucked all her longings for him, hoping someday he'll just choose to stay by her side. However she was very aware that such a dream of hers was very selfish. She knew firsthand how the boy worked hard to become a ballet dancer and to make him stay just because she kept on missing him was total nonsense on her part. She loved the boy, she should always support him and control her longings. 

Now, he was trying to tell her he would quit going to London to stay with her. Does this mean he wanted to stop ballet for her?