Savage Queen's Secret

For a while he felt suffocation in his chest, his breath held in and eyes stuck at Caixia. He was giving her a blank stare while lost in his own thoughts.

She was waiting to hear his reply, for some reason she didn't wished to hear a 'ok' from his mouth but at the same time hearing a 'not ok' was quite provoking for her.

She, herself was confused what she really wanted – a yes or a no? She swallowed deep while tied with his blank stare and waiting for his reply.

"Caixia" he finally said something and her ears perked up to hear it, "you should stop dreaming. I announced this wedding since grandpa forced me to either announce it or let you go. I would rather announce my wedding to the whole world then let you go and I guess I have told you this words for a few times already".

She was surprisingly stunned after hearing his words. While it provoked her ego since his words kind of seemed like a challenge but at the same time she was relieved to hear that.

She was freaked out as she realized her own thoughts which were out of her control. The moment she took a breath of relief, she found out the reason why she was feeling so irksome after seeing Lee Shin next to Wang Shiwei.

It wasn't because she felt bad that Wang Shiwei took advantage of her, rather it was because…

So, is this love?

Caixia was still inexperienced in love and the only one she fall for when she was young was nothing more then an obsession to get what she liked and see as pretty.

She finally understood her master words which he told her when she insisted of getting her senior as her boyfriend.

She can't look into his eyes anymore, it was getting harder and hotter inside the car after she realized what she really felt for him.

Slowly while her head was straight, she gave him a side way glance and turned her head toward the window. Suddenly a thought passed through her head and she felt it hard to breath.

She remembered what his eyes looked like when he misunderstood her stay at Jully house as an affair.

It was obsession! Even though she knew that she wasn't obsessed with him but what about him? He looked like a hunter putting his prey inside a cage since he was obsessed of seeing her daily in front of his eyes rather then killing her at once.

She turned her head toward him and the same obsessive eyes were greedily staring her. It was horrifying and Caixia knew that a person obsessed with a particular thing can go to whatever height so as to keep it to himself since she have experienced it herself.

"Do you love me or is it simply a guy's ego to keep his woman to himself?" she asked, her eyes sideways looking at him and her hand on the door knob.

"Love? I have only loved her and will only love her," he replied to her, his eyes showing affectionate gaze as he thought about Wu Aili.

Caixia frowned even though the one he admitted to love was her but still it wasn't her, "Then who I am?".

His eyes widely stared at her since she have never asked such questions from him and neither he have expected her to ask.

"You are my wife and no one can take that place of yours," he bluntly said those words and got a glare from her which seemed to have no emotions in it.

She wryly mocked her self while laughing just after giving him a glare. Shiwei looked at her nervously since he was perplexed by the situation.

A clank sound got his attention and Caixia stepped out after opening the door.

"I bet you never loved her, too!" she said as she stepped out while holding a sorrowful smile.

His eyebrows creased and he got out, too, "What do you mean?"

"She might have helped you in some way or maybe you just have admired her after seeing her from far away but there is no way you ever had a friendly chat with her. It's simply admiration or gratitude, it can't be called love," with a confident look she said those words.

And she was right, he never got the chance to talk with her and he adorned her after she saved his life at the time he needed most. But why did she can guess that much? Can a friend even know this much?

"What are you trying to tell me?" he sounded angry and upset since she brought Wu Aili in the topic.

She let out a sigh and looked at her sleepers and then around herself. They were in the middle of the highway from where she can't even get a cab!

"I would tell you this in a simple word. What I want in my life partner is love. If he doesn't love me then there is no reason for me to be with him for a life time. Go and marry that Lee Shin who calls herself as your fiancée, in that way you will be able to keep your reputation even after I don't marry you".

She was straight forward with her words and doesn't looked like joking at all.

Wang Shiwei scowled and clenched his fist, "Its not like you love me".

She didn't replied and just stared at his clenched jaws that made her feel as if he might get broken teeth if continued to gnash like that.

It was midnight and there was no way Caixia could get a lift and her condition was not good either to leave on her own two legs.

It was similar to the situation where she fall from the sky and got stuck on a tall tree branch. The safe land seemed far away.

She sighed and got back in her car, "I will go with you for today but lets get a divorce as quick as possible".

His world seemed to be collapsing but he didn't wished to admit it. Even the thought of getting divorced seemed unbearable yet those words had no emotion coming out of her mouth. Why was that?

"I won't let you go!" he said and got back inside the car, too.

"You can't keep me, too! You know that, right? I am quite skilled at running away," Caixia said while reminding him of how she broke out of his house twice.

He nodded with a smirk and pulled the gear tightly, "Very well, then I will keep you in front of my eyes".

She haughtily shook her head and breathed out furiously. Things were not going as it should be and Caixia blamed everything on Lee Shin while cursing her in her thoughts.

"Love and obsession, there isn't much difference in it but that much difference in itself makes a huge difference. While love gives wings, obsession cuts it," Caixia said while glancing at him and later shut her eyes to fall asleep while leaning her head on the seat back.

His mind full of thoughts on what she said and her very words felt right but he was still unwilling to let her go.

Then again he wondered that whether if he tells a simple lie that he loves her, would it stop her from leaving him but can he do that?

No, he was reluctant to pull such a lie and the thought that Caixia might be right when she told him about Wu Aili and that it wasn't love but a gratitude toward his savior.

His heart was a mess and so was his mind. He was feeling that he never knew what love was really and he might have to start from a scratch but why should he?

His ego blocked all those thoughts and he refused to think about her words that seemed right.

He stopped his car as he reached his mansion. Caixia was sleeping peacefully and the peace on her face gave him a quite nice feeling.

He never thought that he could see such a relaxing expression on her face after he saw her disgusted gaze toward him.

Slowly he moved his finger toward her eyebrows but her hand slapped it away and eyes opened up.

She was giving him a cold shoulder and got out on her on.

"I thought that you were sleeping!" his eyebrows creased as he got out of the car and stared her walk inside the mansion all on her on.

"I got awake since I felt insecure by a stranger touch," she replied aloofly.

What? A stranger? How can she say that to her husband!

Caixia walked inside the room beside his and locked it from inside.

"It's not like I don't have the key to that room". He muttered and signaled his staff to bring the spare key.

"How is grandpa?" he asked from Secretary Kim whose eyes were puffy since his other personality woke up after he saw Caixia got mistreated by Wang Shiwei so called mistress.

"He left and is getting things ready for the marriage". He gave him a reply and cleaned his glasses since he was having a hard time in seeing the things clearly.

"The problem is not your glass but your puffy eyes. Go and sleep soundly, it will be good for your eyes".

Secretary Kim nodded and left while Wang Shiwei once again went to her room with a key and the brewed medicine given by the doctor.